hello.. hello?

He said becareful, you could lose yourself.

What happens if I already lost myself.

i just want all of this to pass.

Looking for myself... sober

I didn't want to stay at school by myself so I came home for the night just to find out the school is closed tomorrow, so I'm going back to close the room down and to see Mike before vacation starts. I need to see my best friend it's been a little less then a week and Chester was the loneliest thing without him.

After vacation I will have one week and two days of chester college. I am so excited but then so sad about leaving my two best friends behind.  there's just too much on my mind. I would really just like to be happy. I really need a pick me up... but it's hard to get a pick me up when no one knows you're upset.

Dear Boston, I'm banking on you - I'm ready, are you?!

"When it's good, then it's good, it's so good, 'till it goes bad

Till you're trying to find the you that you once had

I have hurt myself, cried,

Never again

Broken down in agony

And just trying to find a friend

I'm safe

Up high

Nothing can touch me

But why do I feel this party's over?"

a dream is a wish your heart makes.

I don't know why I got it in my head that you'd actually follow through.

I wanted to be surprised not disappointed.

I should have never got my hopes up.  Maybe I shouldn't get mad at my best friend when he says things that I know are true. I just like to give people the benefit of the doubt and I like to think that I'm worth it.

here's to a night at chester all alone with no best friends around.

Sometimes I wonder if you even still think or dream of me then I remind myself that is doesn't even matter.

Monkey in the middle.

How did we all get here?

Letter was written by

It was Mike and I.

I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker

This school is such bullshit.

I love how my friends and I sometimes end up on the list. Really? Are we really the schools biggest issue? I find that hilarious. Please come talk to me about my attitude because you can't change it and the funny thing is... I don't even have that bad of an attitude. Oh man I was soo pissed off when I found out about this shit, I cannot wait to leave - what a month left here?

You are a skank, I cannot believe you have the nerve to say that about me (sorry I'm not a hoe like you) I'm glad I told you off.  If you want to play this game just know I'm going to play it better.

Even though I turned in my finical aid stuff the day of it got there and I'm all set and I'll still be a sophomore when I transfer which is nice.

I just wish I knew how things were going to end up.