Looking for myself... sober

I didn't want to stay at school by myself so I came home for the night just to find out the school is closed tomorrow, so I'm going back to close the room down and to see Mike before vacation starts. I need to see my best friend it's been a little less then a week and Chester was the loneliest thing without him.

After vacation I will have one week and two days of chester college. I am so excited but then so sad about leaving my two best friends behind.  there's just too much on my mind. I would really just like to be happy. I really need a pick me up... but it's hard to get a pick me up when no one knows you're upset.

Dear Boston, I'm banking on you - I'm ready, are you?!

"When it's good, then it's good, it's so good, 'till it goes bad

Till you're trying to find the you that you once had

I have hurt myself, cried,

Never again

Broken down in agony

And just trying to find a friend

I'm safe

Up high

Nothing can touch me

But why do I feel this party's over?"